JUST THOUGHTS...

I can't wait to wake up to morning kisses, to unexpected hugs from behind. I am so excited to roll over and crash into you with my arms and legs pulling you in. I can't wait to drink coffee and watch you tell me how  I take too much caffeine. I can't wait   to laugh with you over glasses of wine. No scratch that... over bottles of wine, talking about the things that felt so stressful during the day.  I can't wait to banter over you sneaking to read my writing before I've shown you. I'm so excited to think of the little fights we'd have, the touches that aren't sexual but just slight touches of comfort. I can't wait to stay up watching tv shows and movies and getting obsessed over little things.  I can't wait to take pictures with you, I can't wait to get a puppy together, to travel together, to make plans together and simply love together. I'm so damn excited to find you and to learn all about you and to love the th

I'm trying to get over you so hard. And some days I wake up and think. Yes! Maybe I'm finally free. Free from my echoing thoughts of you. Free from the constant battle of loving you and losing you.  But then on other days I wake up and all I can think about is how your eyes look and how your face looks just before you break into a smile.  Maybe we aren't meant to be together, maybe not now, maybe not ever and I don't want to have a single grain of hope because blessed are those with zero expectations.  But sometimes I think against my own will that what if we break all the laws? Maybe we will forget each other soon but what if we meet again someday in the future and in one look we'll feel the ache in our hearts of our incomplete love and maybe then I'll be right for you and you'll be right for me?  Maybe we are meant to be together, maybe not now but maybe someday. #Maybes 💞